Not shockingly, as the intensity in this grows, I've argued with my husband, freaked out about the simplest tasks and haven't been able to keep a thought in my head for more than about 30 seconds at a time. And then it hit me - I was under attack too. No it didn't look the same as my son, but I was facing a spiritual attack that could be even more devestating than my son's. My son's battle was coming head on and he was bravely facing it as best he could. But mine, mine was a diversion tactic to keep my eyes off the front lines.
You see, as long as I was paying attention to my argument with David or my mounting pile of grading papers or the laundry room that was overflowing or my piercing headache, I was distracted. But something happened today that brought me back to center. As I read the word and prayed for my son, I realized I needed allies in this battle. I knew I needed my fellow soldiers standing with me, marching to the front line on my son's behalf. I called on my dear sisters in Christ and some family members and after just a few quick texts, I had close to a dozen people praying the same verses for my son. With laser focus I turned my eyes to the Lord and got down on my knees and I could feel His power moving. Not in me - not for me - but for my son. I knew, with complete confidence, that the heavenly hosts were defending my son's heart and mind and that while he was away from me physically, spiritually I knew he was safe.
We are told in Ephesians 6 -
10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. 11 Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. 12 For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.16 In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one;
And then in 1 Peter 5 we are told -
8 Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. 9 Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world.
And in Ephesians 3 we hear -
20 Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen.
God will work through us for His glory. He helps us to closes the mouths of lions, put out the flaming arrows and wages war on the powers of darkness on our behalf. We come with faith. We come with prayer. We come with the power of the Holy Spirit. And we come as a unified body in Christ - one faith, one Lord. We are not alone and He will work in ways we cannot even conceive. But that truth is attacked and twisted and distorted in this world.
Satan deceives. Satan divides. Satan distracts. The war is won, but the battle rages on until Christ's return and Satan looks to move our eyes from the Lord onto lesser things.
I don't know all God has for my son, or for me, or for our family. But anything that builds the kingdom puts us in the line of fire for spiritual attack. And the greatest way to slow me down is to have me fighting the windmills of life and ignoring to front line, because if I truly stopped and looked at the front line, I wouldn't even see the battle. I would be too busy staring at my Savior, charging before us on a white steed with a double edged sword. I'd be captivated by my King. And there is nothing more devastating to satans schemes than to be totally captured in the light of our Lord.
I'm back in the battle. On my knees. Surrounded by fellow soldiers. And here, in this place, there is peace.
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